Note: This post is a month overdue. Grin and bear it.
November 1
Wednesday
8:06 PM
Mood: Overwhelmed, in a quasi-bad kind of way
The Stars Are NOT Blind, Paris
My Sunday horoscope read: "There's something fabulous about every bad trait you have. Your sarcasm is charming. Your cynicism is often true. And your callousness makes you strong. Someone adores your badness.”
True for the most part, except the last.
Ch-ch-changes This November
I don’t know why I took so long
I kept holding on to the safety of the past.
And then one day the weather changed
And this gentle breeze put me on to a new path.
Home at last.
November is my second favorite month (after December). It starts off all morbid and otherworldly but then it sheds off the macabre to smoothly flow into the festive Christmas season. Not to mention that in the middle of it is the birthday of one of the most celebrated people in the planet. Haha, who am I kidding?!
This November feels surreal to me. Not only do I turn another year older but I am about to shift gears in major aspects of my life. I am one of those people who don’t usually welcome change. I thrive in my comfort zone and I work my life on a stringent routine. Throw me a curveball and everything goes haywire.
But you got to roll with the punches. And yeah, you won’t go places if you won’t let go of the shore. So I am taking a leap of faith and doing my best to psych myself up. To quell the fear of the unknown in order to see the excitement of endless possibilities.
By next week, we will be transferring to a new house in Bulacan. Same village, just in a different street. I ought to be excited coz this one is bigger, way better and more permanent. We took a lot of pains in having it refurbished. I just don’t like the fitting-in part. You know…new neighbors. It will take some time before we get used to their idiosyncrasies (and vice-versa). Yes, we know a lot of people in that street…and that is the problem! Sometimes I am so anti-social that I hate high-school classmates/neighbors who drop by for a chit chat. I mean we can go out and update ourselves but not when I am in my house-rest mode. With the demands of my work lately, rest (even food!) has become some sort of luxury.
Speaking of work….my second curveball is work. I have been a marketing hotshot (sic) for five years now but new demands and requirements in our company suddenly propelled me in another direction. I might just dabble on supply chain instead of marketing. There are no formalities yet but my recent work on SAP Upgrade opened new doors for me in terms of career move. Truth to tell, this is already the third “door” to be offered to me. I politely closed the first two “doors.” I just don’t see myself inside those doors.
This third door (supply chain) is more ME. I just have to organize the supply chain process. I still get to deal with a lot of people (Sales people, principals, agencies, etc) and I will still closely with my office buddies. What am I afraid of? My savvy is in marketing. I can make marketing presentations and programs even when I am asleep. Supply chain is something that I will still have to learn. I mean I like the challenge but I also know that we (as a company) are pressed for time. I have to deliver results fast. Yes, I can deliver…I just might kill myself in the process (16-hour work shift, pressure, stress…you name it.)
As I said, this is a leap of faith. If they want more from me…then all I can do is TRY.